Thursday, June 8, 2017

chasing pink sky

today I am so cranky.
I've been a jerk and fought with my mom.
I've snapped and cracked.
errrr.
I just feel gross,
you know?

I'm tired.
Physically and mentally.

I've danced for what feels like fifty days in a row.
I've bottled bottled bottled emotion.
I'm bracing myself to say goodbye to dear friends and
I just.
don't.
want.
to.
I feel poor and I need to buy: makeup, a planner, sunglasses, and a phone case.
I thought I would be done with school today and I'm not.


It rained all day today,
which felt like a constant reminder of my inside state.
When I was driving home tonight after ballet,
it was still wet.
But it was also lighter than usual for 9pm.
To the left, it was dark and stormy and grey.
The right, however, was pink and yellow and blue.

I would glance through the empty streets of our little town, and see pink sky.
warm, saturated, sky.

You know, we serve a God of reckless grace.
Big, bright, beautiful grace that showers us when we humble ourselves before our God.

today, I'm thankful for grace.
I'm thankful for doughnuts and coffee.
I'm thankful for tears, however embarrassing or inconvenient they may be.
today, I'm choosing to chase the God who paints the sky pink.


16 comments:

  1. Oh my, I know.. I feel like you just described my day too. Thanks for the reminder about His grace. I'm so glad it doesn't end when we mess up, even if it feels like it sometimes. I hope you have a better day tomorrow. xx

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    1. His grace is so beautiful!
      I'm glad we're showered in it together <3
      and you to Jessica!

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  2. WOW. I needed this so much! Thank you. Thank you. God's grace is so beautiful and you described it beautifully and so simply.

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    1. you are so welcome!
      thanks so much for the kind words <3

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  3. Wow. That was beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing!!

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  4. I needed this so much, and I understand exactly what this feels like to be so upset and have bottled up emotions. Thanks, I really needed this <3

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  5. How you do write such lovely things????!! This is one of the most amazing pieces I have ever read and wowowowow you are so talented. You are so brilliant with words. <3 <3 <3
    I love this so much I seriously do not know how to put it into words.
    xx

    Sophy

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    1. YOU ARE SO SWEET!!!!!!!!
      ahhhhhhhhh
      thank you thank you thank you!

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  6. You are amazing. I miss you <3

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    1. you are amazing.
      I miss you too <3 <3

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  7. Yup, I've had lots of days like this too. Hang in there girlie. Never be afraid to run into the arms of your Savior.

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  8. this actually give me shivers, like wow girl you are too wise to be my friend

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