in the dark
trying to listen
not ready to let go
I try to face the new year as social media would like me to: inspired, energized, ready to kick butt.
But how do you prepare for God's story?
I've spent the past eighteen years of my life training. I've spent hours doing school, dancing, studying, playing music, singing, acting, talking, listening, learning.
Learning learning learning.
I've learned that my job is to listen.
Yet I'm told to plan this blank page of a year.
Make my dreams happen.
Run ahead at full force.
Those are horrible resolutions.
but I will quiet my planner self.
I will breathe in and find rest.
and I will wait.
I will wait for Him to make sense of these simple analogies + complex feelings